Expectation: I feel a little bit better today!
\nExpectation: I feel a little bit better today!
\nExpectation: I feel a little bit better today!
\nExpectation: Hey, I think I feel pretty good!
\nExpectation: I guess that means I’m normal now! Time to go live a normal life!
\n———————————
\nReality: I feel terrible.
\nReality: I still feel terrible.
\nReality: Is this seriously “recovery?” This sucks.
\nReality: I don’t want to be thinking about all of this shit, this is exhausting.
\nReality: I guess today’s not so bad.
\nReality: Today is bad again.
\nReality: Today is bad, but I think I’m starting to understand why.
\nReality: Wow, how long has it been since I cleaned my room?
\nReality: Cleaning my room didn’t make me feel any better, but hey, room’s clean.
\nReality: Whoa, okay, I need a shower. And maybe a haircut? Definitely a haircut.
\nReality: Everything sucks.
\nReality: Okay, except you.
\nReality: And you too, I didn’t mean that you sucked.
\nReality: And that thing that I like is pretty cool.
\nReality: What was I talking about?
\nReality: Oh, THAT’S why my ex broke up with me.
\nReality: Wow, it turns out that was totally my fault?
\nReality: I was the jackass.
\nReality: Holy shit, I am such a jackass.
\nReality: Everybody must hate me.
\nReality: EVERYBODY HATES ME.
\nReality: Okay, how could everybody hate me? I mean, even if I’m a jackass, the Law of Averages dictates that SOMEBODY out there would probably like me anyway.
\nReality: Why would everybody hate me anyway, I’m awesome.
\nReality: …I’m not that awesome.
\nReality: Sometimes I’m pretty awesome, though.
\nReality: OH MY GOD I HATE MYSELF
\nReality: WHAT IS THIS, I’M RIGHT BACK WHERE I STARTED
\nReality: EVERYTHING SUCKS, THE WORLD SUCKS, I SUCK, NOBODY WILL EVER LOVE ME AND I WILL DIE UNMOURNED AND ALONE
\nReality: …What the hell was that about?
\nReality: Anyway, gonna get stuff done.
\nReality: Gonna get stuff done
\nReality: Getting stuff done
\nReality: WHY DO I FAIL AT EVERYTHING
\nReality: WALLOWING
\nReality: WALLOWING SOME MORE
\nReality: Okay NO MORE WALLOWING, we’ve talked about this, we’re not doing this right now.
\nReality: …I can’t believe that worked.
\nReality: Huh.
\nReality: So hang on, is this it?
\nReality: I mean, is this recovery? Am I doing this right? Is it going to be over soon?
\nReality: I just want to be normal.
\nReality: I am such a ridiculous trainwreck of a human being. How do I even exist? Why do I get to have friends? Why do you people talk to me? There’s so much about myself that I really don’t like, and there’s probably even more stuff that I don’t even know about that isn’t too hot, either. And I’m working on it, but man, it’s hard.
\nReality: …I just realized that everything I just said is normal.
\nReality: Oh my God, am I already normal?
\nReality: I’M ALREADY NORMAL. THIS IS NORMAL.
\nReality: It’s…not exactly everything I was hoping for, to tell you the truth.
\nReality: …Oh well.
\nReality: Today was okay.
\nReality: Maybe tomorrow will be better.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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