Bug: there’s this feeling you get when you transition from depression to being OK with yourself and it’s really weird
Bug: because you don’t really believe that you’re OK? because you shouldn’t be. why should you? you’re a piece of shit, right? worthless
Bug: and then that support network cuts in and you look down and wow, you’ve got a safety net, and it’s been here all along
Bug: people love you. you’re worth their time. you are a person worthy of adoration and affection. it’s so jarring and weird that you resent it
Bug: this is Wrong, this shouldn’t happen, not to ME, i’m not worth it. but if you can believe them, then… it’s so amazing. maybe you are.
Bug: idk feelings are weird but this is the happiest i’ve been in a long, long time??? and i’m happy. for once. and i’m thankful for that
Cat: I know these feels so dang well, stop reading my thoughts, bug. (I am so happy for you, btw)
Cat: you pretty much summarized my therapy session yesterday in about 5 tweets
Bug: i’d like to give you a huge hug if you’d like when we meet at TacoCon ’13 :3
Cat: I would love that!
Cat: my therapist was talking a lot about how so much of depression is tied into feeling lonely & invisible & feeling you deserve that
Rades: ahhhh it’s things like this that make me so happy, I’m almost glad I’m up trying to find a single SS among 1000’s (almost)
Cat: GONNA DROWN YOU IN SCREENSHOTS AND FEELINGS, RADES
Rades: also i meant screenshots and not super squeezes /supersqueezes cat and bug
Cat: being with Mr C has helped me get a little better at trusting others and their intentions, and I am so glad for it
Cat: so then you guys all do amazing, rad things and I’m like “maybe this is okay? this is for me? wooooooow”
Cat: yeah, and then you’ve become so detached from who it is you actually ARE, because you’ve been taught to be afraid of it
Cat: you’ve been taught that that You is a monster, and ugly, and awful, but really it’s just in a cage and wounded and hurting.
Cat: and it’s so easy to mistake those wounds for ‘ugliness’ god this doesn’t even make any sense, sorry I puked feelings on your feed
Bug: right!! and all it takes is Someone to really… idk, Show You that you’re not that monster you think you are.